Letting Old Wounds Rest

Releasing obsessions over healing to focus on building the dream life we're manifesting.

Hello, Divine Ones!

Let me start with a little pivot announcement: Sacred Sundays are still on but I’m officially ditching the biweekly schedule for this newsletter. Why? Because trying to force my creativity into neat little boxes sucks the magic right out of me. I’m embracing a flowy approach that lets inspiration lead the way. Some weeks you might get two to three posts, some weeks none—it’ll be like catching a rare butterfly when one lands in your inbox. Exciting right?!😂

Now, onto today’s musings.

Today, I saw an ad for NYFW (New York Fashion Week), and I thought, “Why not apply?” But then I remembered: I don’t know my measurements off the top of my head. Somewhere in the dusty archives of my phone, I had saved them, so I went digging. Using the keyword “5'10,” my height, I searched through my messages, and what came up? Conversations with two past romantic interests. One was probably my biggest love interest this year, and the other was a ghost from my past—my first love.

I paused.

I had deleted these conversations from my phone, but apparently, they were immortalized on my laptop🙃. Curiosity took the wheel, and before I knew it, I was scrolling through the past.

Tears welled up in my eyes as I asked myself all the questions I swore I was done asking: How is he? Did he ever go to therapy? Were those feelings even real? Why is letting him go so hard? And yes, I started mentally beating myself up for diving headfirst into a wound I’ve worked so hard to heal.

But here’s the thing: I’ve come to realize that 8–9 years of love for someone doesn’t evaporate just because you want it to. Especially when the relationship was tangled up with emotional manipulation—not the intentional kind, but the kind that leaves you questioning your reality and worth. It’s hard to untangle that type of mess.

As I sat there crying, I felt the familiar urge to grab my tarot cards and “find answers.” But God, being the ultimate plot twist architect, had other plans.

I first opened YouTube, ready to resume a tarot video I’d paused earlier as I pulled my cards, but another video from one of my favorite intuitives, Jhadina, popped up instead. The message? Stop digging into wounds that are already closed.

“Wow, God,” I thought. “You’re good.”

I’ve spent so much of my life striving to perfect my healing. I kept revisiting old wounds, telling myself, “I could do better—let’s fix this even more!” But the truth is, by reopening those wounds, I was only creating bigger scars. Healing isn’t about endlessly reworking yourself toward perfection; it’s about trusting that the work you’ve already done is enough. Sometimes, our triggers reveal how much we’ve already grown, not just how far we still have to go.

I know my heart and intentions are pure, and the people who matter in my life see that too. As I’ve narrowed my community down to those who’ve shown me loyalty, fairness, patience, and understanding, I’m committed to moving forward with them, lifting us all higher.

The grace I’ve been given is something I aim to extend to others. Judgment is far too quick and common in our society, often born of misunderstanding and assumption.

Everyone has their own reasons for where they are in life, whether struggling with homelessness, addiction, or mental health. When we judge without understanding, we perpetuate harm. For example, assuming someone is a "drug addict" to justify not helping them might mean they go hungry another day. Instead of judging, let’s offer kindness for the simple sake of helping another human being.

We’re all flawed, yet we’re fortunate to have this human experience. Opportunities to judge are also chances to show compassion and grace. By uplifting others, we elevate ourselves and the lives we want to create.

“Be the change you want to see in the world”

“We but mirror the world. All the tendencies present in the outer world are to be found in the world of our body. If we could change ourselves, the tendencies in the world would also change. As a man changes his own nature, so does the attitude of the world change towards him. This is the divine mystery supreme. A wonderful thing it is and the source of our happiness. We need not wait to see what others do.” – Mahatma Gandhi

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Taking accountability for personal growth is hard, uncomfortable, and ongoing work—but it deserves celebration. Even when we backtrack, reopening old wounds, the effort matters. Many people go through life without even trying, but I’ve done that work for the last nine years—facing my shame, forgiving myself, and transforming.

Now, as I step into my personal 9 year, I’m ready to elevate. The slingshot metaphor resonates deeply: the further you’re pulled back, the farther you propel forward.

2025 is my year to stop digging through the past and start stepping into my full potential. The girl who doubted her worth and felt like life’s punching bag served her purpose, but it’s time to retire her. I’m not broken—and I never was.

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As Jhadina’s video reminded me, the collective energy is shifting from healing to serving—a perspective that deeply resonates with me. I’m realizing it’s time to move beyond overanalyzing old wounds and instead focus on sharing my gifts with the world. As I’ve mentioned before, my journey has always been about spreading messages to guide others on their paths. I loved hearing Jhadina say she started her YouTube channel to be the person she once needed because it mirrors exactly why I created this blog. Healing isn’t the star of the show anymore; it’s the sturdy platform I use to build something far greater.

This year is also about joy, play, and connection. I’m ready to step out of my hermit cave and into the world, not just to exist but to live. I want to laugh until I have abs, travel to places I’ve only dreamed of, and experience true love. 2025 is going to be a MOVIE and as Pastor Jamal Bryant stated in the New Year's Eve service: prepare to be sicka me!!!!

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2024 was a transformative year that prepared me for this moment. It taught me resilience, self-love, and the power of faith. Now, as I spread my wings in 2025, I’m ready to fly—even if they’re still a little damp from the previous rain. And I’m asking you: Are you ready to fly, too?

Let’s move forward together, leaving the past where it belongs—as a lesson, not a life sentence. Here’s to a year of service, joy, and unapologetic living.

With love and divine vitality,
Jordan💛

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